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“If YOU can dream it, YOU can do it!” -Walt

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Dedicated to Garry Alesio: one of my biggest fans. Thank you for your undying support of me following my bliss…I love you, G! Now it is YOUR turn!

A year ago this weekend I set out on an adventure of a lifetime that is STILL with me today: A SOLO trip to Bali, Indonesia.

When I told my wise friend “Natgeo” that a year ago this weekend I set out for Bali she said: “Reflection and Retrospect.”

So, I looked back at my blog from a year ago when I returned home from Indo. The last line of the post was:

“We grow the most from things that stretch us the most.” -Unknown

Geez. How congruent is that still for me today?! And for YOU?

It is wild and powerful how time soars by. In my reflection and retrospect this am I thought of a few things: IMG_8921

  1. Who? Who has touched my life along the way? And to whom have I had the honor to do the same?
  2. What? WHAT did I experience and push through? What pushed me? 
  3. Why? DON’T ASK!! 😉 Reflect and possibly ponder, but some things we may not understand…don’t force it, right?

It has been terribly uncomfortable for me to not write on a weekly basis on Still Playin’ With It. As those of you whom have stayed with me on this revolutionary journey of becoming a “writer” you all know that I was diligent and spot on with regards to my goal of writing one blog per week for a year. Well, I did it! And I am proud, yes! Since then, with life’s hiccups, new adventures, and new opportunities, I have chosen to not force the flow like I wrote last week in I believe IT is coming:

“As I have contemplated, searched for, and judged myself for not writing the past 6 weeks, today I remember why:

YOU CAN’T FORCE THE FLOW! 

I want it to be my inner most creation built on the precipice of movement. Not crammed within the lines of expectations.”

(As you can tell, it is REAL altercation in my homeostasis to not write weekly and sit in the presence of this choice WITHOUT judgement!) Good lord that was such a “therapist-y” thing to write! AND I LOVE IT PEOPLE!

As well, I think all these experiences and lessons I am learning are part of the perfection of Still Playin’ With IT! I mean the TITLE of my blog alone states the obvious! Aren’t We All still playin’ with something in our life trying to figure it out or attempt to stay the course?

I continue to believe with the utmost of certainty that WE are responsible for our own well being. I am living proof that if you set with intention, your goals, dreams and desires, THEY WILL COME TO BE.

This I challenge you TODAY…

WHAT WILL YOU CREATE THIS WEEK IN YOUR LIFE?

HOW WILL YOU CREATE THE SPACE TO DO SO?

WHAT MAY NEED TO BE ELIMINATED?

HOW WILL YOU CELEBRATE THE VICTORIES…EVEN THE SMALLEST OF ONES?

LASTLY, IF WE TRULY GROW THE MOST FROM THINGS THAT STRETCH US THE MOST…HOW WILL YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF IN THE MIDST?

In celebration of courage, strength and commitment to myself and to YOU, Please read the blog from Bali below or simply scroll down as I pasted it in.

And remember…YOU have it all within YOU!

Until the next flow sesh…

Terimah Kasih Friends!

Look What I Found!

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“EITHER WRITE SOMETHING WORTH READING OR DO SOMETHING WORTH WRITING.” BENJAMIN FRANKLIN

Canggu, Bali August, 2014

First and foremost terima kasih (Thank you) friends and followers for supporting this Bali adventure I just took. Thank you for asking me about my travels since I have been back in the states. Thank you for wanting to read, or hear what I learned and experienced. Thank you for connecting with me while I was gone. THANK YOU! You are the sweet soul of Still Playin With It.

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I don’t believe I would be a good writer if I weren’t honest, right? As I have said numerous times, “leading at scale” or allowing yourself to be vulnerable with your audience is where change happens to everyone involved. So, with that said, I look forward to sharing with you about Bali and the adventure it was!
IMG_8893I arrived in Canggu, Bali tired, jet-lagged and run down with a lovely cough that had been lingering for weeks. The last season of my life has been of racing from school to residency to licensure in the midst of a divorce. So once I arrived in Bali, I didn’t know what to do with myself. That amount of freedom when your body and mind aren’t used to it can feel simply nauseating. After acclimating and receiving the love and support of a few amazing Aussies, I was able to relax with open eyes. (Thank you RF and AR!)

Let’s call this the winter of my trip, or at least this had some signs of winter: tired, dark and impatient. One morning, in my dark room, I said to myself,
IMG_8746“Rebecca Laser, get up just before sunrise and go find Echo Beach!” I had rented a scooter the day before, so I had the means. I got up, quietly grabbed my stuff out of the room and set out to find this beach everyone was chatting about. I definitely took the LONG way to find it…seems to be a theme in my life. Literally I went probably 100 times farther than I needed to go, but I FOUND IT!
IMG_8773As I adventured out I stumbled across the Rice Paddy fields where the sun was rising immediately over them. I stopped my scooter while visually and emotionally embracing that moment. What a beautiful introduction to my “spring.” I discovered and created my new season, my self, and my moment of season shifting. Like the equinox we just experienced yesterday, September 22, 2014, my sun rose to the top of my hemisphere, bringing a change to my season. I think the best part of this story is that I CREATED this alteration. By utilizing my natural resources and listening to the “Braveheart” in my head, I allowed this turn to occur organically. That is Echo Beach below… IMG_8783

Like seasons past, so is the history of our pathway, our footprints, and our tracks. The past two years of my life have been one for the history books, my history book. This is my life and I am writing it. I reflect on the lessons that come from my history, my past, my textbook of life, and my personal bible. History, whether history of the nation we call “Home” or of another far off land, history includes brutality, peace, war, reuniting, being lost, gaining sight, destruction: self and natural, fear, bravery, pain, triumph, pleasure, growth, wages, power, debt, weddings, divorce, slaughter, birth, re-birth, murder, value, bartering, suicide, contemplation, harvesting, and FREEDOM!
IMG_8892When reflecting on your history and being the only TRUE scholar of your past, by definition, inquire and therefore gain knowledge through investigation. The memories, visions and interpretations of your history go through your brain like a train on tracks. Those dark winter months of your personal history drove you forward, naturally, to the next season. Being lost helps you gain sight. Courage intertwines with fear. Freedom stems from letting go of old shit. Your history, the good, the bad and the ugly are synchronizations of a perfect, absolutely perfect journey called YOUR LIFE.

The seasons result from the Earth’s axis of rotation being tilted with respect to its orbital plane. Imagine your life spinning on the axis of your history, ever rotating, moving through seasons. My world continues to spin on the axis of my history, with recognition of my present ever orbiting. I see my future as intertwined with my history making me stronger, better and more beautiful whether enjoying a sunset in Uluwatu or wrecking my scooter in Canggu.

IMG_0009Our muscles will grow more physically when we stretch them. Our relationships will strengthen when we stretch them through awareness, connection and vulnerability. Our minds will grow when we stretch it to encompass more knowledge, experience and put effort into learning. Our spirit lengthens when we devote our thought, prayers or meditation to our higher power, our god, and ourselves. Some of these stretches come through personal practice. Some come through the gentle guidance of a coach, trainer, mentor, friend, or partner.

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What is stretching you today? Allow this life experience to strengthen you while you GROW into your next season.

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Self Contained

“Listen to the beat of your heart.” -Rebecca Laser

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In last weeks blog: All In, I built upon the Joseph Campbell quote: “The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure that you seek.” Some of you may have discovered the cave, or tip toed around it this week. I hope you take a leap and jump on in. The treasure is worth the momentary discomfort. This cave will not only give you a gift, it will allow you to see and create new experiences in YOUR life. The ones you may have been dreaming of for decades. Proceed with caution as this cave may be a little treacherous. The number one rule in SCUBA: Always use the buddy system. Same with entering dim, scary, caves! Whether a trusted friend or an amazing therapist…(hint hint!)
DCIM100GOPROBefore going to Bali I got my SCUBA cert finished. Thank you for the inspiration Natgeo and KT! When in Gili Trawangan, a killer island off of Bali, I did my FIRST solo dive. Okey, my Indo dive master, did a pre-dive brief explaining the depth we would go to and what we may see. He went over the hand signals for sea creatures we may see such as turtles, sting rays and sharks. He spoke to me as if I knew what I was doing. I was thinking:

“Hey Okey, I dove at La Jolla Shores in California a few times inundated by massive amounts of gear and freezing cold water with little to no visibility. But, hey, seeing a shark sounds cool. I am just glad I will be able to see. Period.”

After my 45 second briefing, I boarded the boat and acclimated my self to my foreign gear. This regulator, BC and weighting system were totally different than what I used in Cali. Holy crap. I was feeling my heart rate escalate. I was completely aware that I didn’t feel safe to enter this “cave.” Then he told me how we would enter the water: “Sit up on the edge of the boat railing Rebecca and when I
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What the hell did he just say? That picture to the right is of me before I fell back…I look freaked out, hey? Because I WAS!! I had to capture this moment on my Go-Pro. (Pics to the right…)

DCIM100GOPROIf you aren’t ready to step into the fearful cave, or fall back into it, then at least notice it, observe it and allow it to do it’s job. Maybe take a guided peak inside (buddy system, right?) If the fear is too great, it may not be time. And that is ok! Fear isn’t in our life to make us paralyzed and afraid.  It also serves a purpose: protection. If you are afraid to enter that cave, or aren’t ready, don’t stress. It will be there when you are ready. And remember: if you force something sooner than it is to happen, you won’t see or get the treasure that awaits.

After Okey and I fell back, I floated at the top for 5 seconds, took a deep breath, and down we went. What I then saw was more breathtaking, not literally, than I could have ever imagined. The sea life was phenomenal. The coral was beyond brilliant. I saw big turtles, a Moray Eel, many Nemos, and a few small reef sharks. I had a personal tour guide in Okey, too. Beyond the magnificent beauty of exploring the depths of the sea, I was exploring the depths of me.

SCUBA Lesson #1: Breathe. Just breathe! DCIM100GOPRO

I often tell my Still Playin’ With It family and my clients the importance of your breath. In How to Kick Ass in One Easy Step, I go into the amazement of our breath. I preach it. I teach it in my Pilates class. We do it daily without even thinking about it. When underwater all you have is the moment and your breath. Yes, your autonomic nervous system will control your breath and kick in when you are out of air or aren’t allowing it to flow naturally. But, in order to really flourish in this space, you have got to focus on your breath and allow it to be. What a pure realization for me. Breath is life. Lastly: When the going gets tough, the tough get breathing!

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In addition to the pure focus that comes to your beautiful breath when underwater, is the power your breath has within finding your buoyancy. I learned very fast that buoyancy is a key element to having fun down there. Buoyancy is defined as the ability to float in liquid. Finding neutral buoyancy is optimal while cruising around underwater.  Inhale: your lungs expand and you start to rise up. Exhale: your lungs decrease in size and you start to sink. Finding a smooth, rhythmic breath is where you want to be. Allowing yourself to feel that weightless, floating sensation is where the magic happens underwater and in life. This rhythmic space gives you a peace that surpasses fear.

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SCUBA Lesson #2: BE PRESENT! That is all you can do. 

Another life skill I teach often is Be Here Now, be aware, be present. When you are a human in the underwater world, all you have is NOW. If something was to go wrong, you have to be focused and present to handle it. If you are naturally focused on your breath and connected to the moment, then you are present, and able to handle the issues that may arise. As well as, enjoy each and every molecule and yummy second! Truly inspiring. Like when I am on my yoga mat, being underwater has taught me to stay present and focused on the NOW. NO WORRIES!

SCUBA Lesson #3: (more of a personal one) I am ALL IN!

DCIM100GOPROI am “all in” in everything I do lately. SCUBA is an example of me jumping in with all I am. No “half-ass” Rebecca Laser here. When I am “all in” I have learned to hear the wisdom of my inner guide, my authentic self, “My-Me.” (Link to Tootsie Rollin) Please hear me: sometimes this “all in” momentum isn’t my first choice. Some rare times, like I spoke of in All-In last week, I need a gentle push, or complete crash to be “all in.” Nevertheless, I AM IN! When YOU are “all in” you are able to hear the beat of your heart. Or as I “profoundly” stated this weekend to an amazing person in my life:

“I think it is when you actually listen to and follow your hearts guidance that the true resonation you are looking for in your life occurs.” (That is for you SC.)

My Next “ALL IN” experience: Getting my first SURF lesson today! Yew!

WHAT IS YOUR “ALL IN” EXPERIENCE GOING TO BE?! Breathe. Be present. Be “ALL IN”!

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“Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing.” Benjamin Franklin